November 27, 2019No Comments

Pay Your Respect: Bali, the Island of the Gods

I felt called to channel these words for two reasons, one, it is relevant (because it's what I am going through, which means you feel it too), and two, I developed my disposable film in which the portrayal of "ethereal oneness" was embodied in the raw moments I captured.

"Ethereal oneness" being the eternal, delicate, airy energy that surrounds us, "in between the spaces" energy which fills our cosmos. Sometimes we can't see it, other times it unfolds in a form of "coincidence", personal revelation, or simple acts of service. Whether you are present or not, it is present in you. You are connected to the person sitting across the room, the man waiting for the bus half-way around the world, the bird chirping in the Amazon forest, the fish swimming in the Pacific Ocean, the trees breathing outside... we are warm-blooded, breathing beings. We need love and nurturing, juicy colorful plants for nutrition, mineral-rich water for hydration, loving human connection, and most importantly, conscious breathing.

I first came to Bali August of 2016. Looking back at my experience, I distracted myself with the over-indulging night life, drugs, and external pleasures, leading to depression and even more suppression of my feelings. It wasn't until now, three years later, that I stepped out of the illusion I was creating and came heart to heart with my inner child.

Our life is an equal manifestation of light and dark. We are eternal beings, subconsciously striving for a balance in all areas of our existence. It is easy to consume all the bountiful fruits when the sun is shining, although, when we take a step back, we are practically drowning in the sensory overload of the illusion. We are surrounded by lush pleasure, but, we are also surrounded by darkness, which we have been suppressing in our own life.

If we keep running, how will we integrate and understand our heart's desires? Bali will greet you (if she hasn't already), at the golden gateway and it may not be as shimmering as you previously fantasized it to be.
Take a sacred pause and honor what you feel right now.

We are all scared and feel all types of ways, its part of our human experience. You are beginning to wake up. You are becoming more conscious of the world around you. Your inner world is a reflection of your outer world. Do you like what you see? Are you happy with your progress? Are you scared? Do you feel worthy of the projections you created in your life?

You don't need the validation. Your feeling is the validation. Embrace yourself and pleasure in your very own existence.

Perhaps you have had bizarre experiences when your feet touch the land, serendipitous encounters, freak accidents, traumatic releases, search for self, whatever may be your calling, you are here for a reason, and that reason being valid because you are experiencing it. Put yourself first in your healing process, but also, pay your respect to the Island of the Gods.

Everything we receive is a blessing in disguise.

Honor everything that you receive. Make a prayer or short blessing. Take a moment in silence. Be still with the offering. Take a few deep breaths. Thank the universe for its presence in your hands (or for this moment if its not a physical gift). Embrace each layer of it (and of you) with compassion and love.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️

The following images are a collection of what my disposable film captured in the rawness of time. To my surprise, the light decided to take a green dance all over the projections... it is what you make of it.

Gaze, ponder, shift your perspective, turn it upside down, zoom in, zoom out. See your reflection mirrored in the grain. Open your heart to her cry. Offer your heart to her existence.

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Itzi in the kitchen
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Muri and Itzi in Ubud Center
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Leo in his disguise
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The sign says meatballs but we came for the hot churros
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Lovers at sea
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Sunny niche in Uluwatu
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Marion and her film on a sunny afternoon
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Dusk in Ubud
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Water purification
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Selfie with the spirits
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Burning palo santo as an offering
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"I fill myself with love. I give it all away."


To my brothers and sisters, do not hesitate to reach out for help. You are heard. Thank you for your presence. 🙂

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Sailing ‘Splendour’ in Flores, Indonesia

splendor (noun): magnificent and splendid appearance

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Port of Labaun Bajo, a fishing town in West Flores
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Muri captures the sunrise over Labaun Bajo
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"All Aboard, Splendour!"

'Splendour' was her name. On this day, we (two sisters visiting from Spain and a brother; one happy family of four) boarded her rustic dark stained wood. We were greeted by the local Indonesian family of staff, whom were to accompany us for the next few days at sea around Flores in East Indonesia.

At the time, I had no idea of what was going to be of these next days. I try not to make sense of anything and leave it simply up to the flow of the sea. I always expect the least. I imagined being on the boat for a few days, so I had previously packed acrylic paints/watercolors and a book to keep us entertained and to channel creativity for those inspirational moments at sea (I find I am most in flow and creative in nature). There is nothing like fun, loving company, but you know how it is when you just want to retreat and read or paint to the melody of her crashing waves.

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Muri and the infinite horizon

Don't let the splendid appearance fool you―The moments when I allowed myself to open up, dare to feel vulnerable, only then, I began to sink deep into her crevices, where mystery unfolds, its dark and unknown. The path which I was conditioned to know is an illusion. My being becomes One with the intuitive curiosity whirling around me, a journey in which I will never want to swim on the surface again.

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August 23, 2019 7:03 AM

Floating off the coast of Komodo Island, a crow pays a visit to me as I wake on the top deck after a windy night under the stars. There is always something special about being on the water―an energy I can't describe, I just feel at One.

My cells dance with the ocean's body and orchestrate a flow of timeless energy.

We spent moments under the half beaten sun, snorkeling, hiking, eating, swimming, walking barefoot on the earth, napping in the shade, laughing, meditating... the highlight of my day was getting towed by the little boat and surfing behind it. The sun set behind a nearby island on the eastern horizon.

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Itzi and her splendor
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The moon will rise soon. I had a revelation while watching a school of 'tongkol' fish (like baby tunas) orchestrate this dance near the yellow light of our boats edge ― This dream, reality, what to call it, I cannot say, it's a feeling, stuff exists, a fish dances in harmony with the other fish. How did it get here? It's nature is to dance and feed. It is One. When I observe its harmonious dance with the school of fish, time disappears, there isn't a name to classify their existence. It breathes water, it doesn't see water like we do, nor does it have a consciousness to attach to the knowing (our "ego"), it was simple, it was honest, it was natural, the fish go to the light and they dance all night.


Sentidos encendidos♥
Sentidos encendidos♥
Sentidos encendidos
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Sentidos encendidos
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Sentidos encendidos

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Pink sand and pink waters
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Local kids play on Pink Beach, Komodo Island
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I love you/Muse @wilsonlion, @ichigar, @murielseiquer666 ♥

Flores, East Nusa Tenggara, Indonesia