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I was inspired to write this article after witnessing a friend experience what you could call "airport trauma". I was witnessing the moment unfold, but I have been in her shoes and could relate to exactly what she was feeling, powerless and small. When we are operating in a victim mentality, anything and anyone can feel like a threat.
Airports provoke a feeling or reenactment of our birth trauma. I've had many similar experiences in the airport: the fear that you aren't on time, you aren't worthy to have a seat of your choice, your bags are too much weight, you are too much, the list can go on and on.
The stress hormones that are released when we are in fight or flight mode are activated in a moment of panic. These same hormones are released, whether we are being "attacked" or not, our body doesn’t know the difference and so we are navigating in a constant state of fear or worry.
The Imprinting Process
After prolonged hours of travel and sudden shock from place to place, I am really starting to recognize how our birth imprint creates a blueprint on our physical body. Our first needs as a baby/child impact our experiences and our perception later in life (this is deep shit and when I started to make the connection, I noticed how my birth script played out in every arena of my life).
Transit comes from latin “transire”, which means to cross over. The transition or crossing over we experience during traveling is symbolic of our transition from womb to world. Traveling can be a pleasurable or a dreadful experience, depending on how you are wired (and your willingness to rewire those circuits if you aren’t enjoying yourself). What fun is traveling when we are stressed out? I think of the quote "It’s not about the destination. Life is about the journey (so take your time)."
A realization I had last night: why are people always rushing around trying to get somewhere?
The conclusion I made, most of us are born in hospitals where the main agenda is to get the baby out in a "timely manner". No wonder we feel like we are rushing to survive.
It is mandatory (the date is September 2021 of a global pandemic) to have a valid PCR or Antigen test (or a vaccine, if that’s the decision you choose to go) to board any flight domestic or international. No exceptions.
When I overheard the young girl say she took a self-test (which is not valid to fly and she knew this), I knew that she was about to reap what she sowed, the prey in a circle of predators.
There was a deep subconscious imprint that was unlocking itself. In the eyes of the girl, the airport check in representative appeared as the "aggressor" of an uncovered past trauma. It was up to her to cultivate acceptance in the moment or retreat into previous submissive patterns.
After an extended argument with the flight representative, it was made obvious she couldn’t board the flight. (I thought to myself, it costs 10 euro to take a rapid test and ride smoothly, why jump through all the loops and even risk it?)
When it came time to navigate towards airport security, she knew she wasn’t joining us. I could see in her eyes she wanted to cry, her body trembling and hands sweaty.
Uncovering Childhood Trauma
Is it possible our school trauma is also brought up while at the airport? The fear that we aren't accepted or valuable (in the eyes of the teacher/ students) or the fear that we aren't on time (for school) then we get punished.
Perhaps we have developed a subconscious mechanism to cope with this feeling as a child. We have created a story that if we are late then we are bad, and therefore we should suffer. You did NOT come here to suffer, play small or feel inferior.
If you remain ignorant of your natural divinity and continue to play the victim, these stress hormones will continue to shower you in any arena of your life. The airport is one context, but it's come to my attention that, if you are playing small, the world will continue to show you that you are small.
How can we feel secure in a whirlwind of chaos?
Stepping Towards Success
When you change the chemistry of your body and signal the happy hormones, the universe will provide. And I mean it, like really provide. Because you are surrendered and you trust, the universe will show that to you. Real life examples of the universe serving me, "you have been upgraded to business class miss" "your flight is delayed, you have an abundance of time to enjoy"; you sit next to someone and you have a, "wow this is the reason I am here" moment.
I've learned over the years and many failed attempts to understand the nature of making peace with the moment. Making peace with the inside will mirror the peace you feel towards the outside. There is no separation.
All moments exist simultaneously. When you change your reaction, the world changes. When you change your breath, your physiology changes.
The same practices it takes to become a master traveler relate to those of a breathwork master, focus, discipline and persistence!!!
There are a few things that we can do to have an effortless, effervescent transit while passing through airports and in navigating life:
Breathe! - Take 20 connected breaths or a few slow deep breaths to ground your body and get back into homeostasis/ into a neutral charge; in this state, you can make an aligned action/ decision.
Affirm yourself in the moment - repeating affirmations in a moment of high stress will signal your mind to change your body chemistry from a state of anxiety to peace
Try this one: "IN THIS MOMENT EVERYTHING IS WORKING OUT FOR MY HIGHEST GOOD, OUT OF THIS SITUATION, ONLY GOOD WILL COME, I AM SAFE."
Trust yourself - Trusting yourself is accepting yourself as you are in this moment (without the need to change anything).
Acceptance - Developing self acceptance and trust that you are guided in all moments; If you don’t board the flight, consider it meant to be. (harsh but to some extent this really works! "If I couldn’t catch that bus, then maybe that was FOR me rather than against me"
Gratitude - "thank you for getting me this far"; when we practice gratitude; we become aligned with the unified intelligence that is serving us at every moment
Play BIG! - Don't take no for an answer, flight for what you believe you deserve!!!
Have fun and laugh at yourself - Essential step to pure pleasure and enjoyment; If we take a step back at look at the big picture, "why are we so serious?"; everything is okay (even the most stress-provoking moments); in this moment, you are breathing, you are safe, you are unharmed; laughing releases happy hormones the opposite of the hormones that are provoked in traumatic experiences - develop a habit to laugh more and bathe in the happy hormones
After all, we love traveling because we can meet new people, expand our hearts and minds and see the world from a new perspective. When we cultivate our happy hormones often and navigate in a state of trust and gratitude - life will get really good!!! You become the master of your life (and the airport/ life becomes your servant rather than the other way around).
Thank you life for all my experiences because I grow and get better through the failures and mistakes. I wouldn’t exchange anything. I love the challenges because it means I am growing!!! JAYY! (Something we say in Greek, jay = victory!)
It's come to my awareness that everything that comes into our field (physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally), are all serving as tools for our personal transformation on this incredibly intricate grid.
I was chatting with my girl friend the other day about how watching fear-induced films, or even the trauma we take on via social media (getting cyber bullied), has a detrimental impact on our mental health.
Our body spits out stress hormones in the case of survival. Your body doesn't know the difference between you witnessing someone get chased on a drama film or you actually getting chased by a predator.
Why is this meaningful?
You are signaling your brain that you are getting attacked (weather you are watching a movie or not) and therefore your body is in a constant state of worry or fear.
The stress shower began when I submitted to watching the 1992 Basic Instinct, an erotic thriller film featuring the seductive temptress Sharon Stone and Michael Douglass. My boyfriend turned it on. The title sounded appealing and I am a fan of 90s movies (I am a 90s baby and everything within that era appeals to me), the scene opened with an erotic sex scene, my Scorpio nature was hooked in.
I became the prey in a mind of predators.
I'm looking back at this blog draft, its been 9 months since I initially had this stress-provoking experience. I've had a deeper attention to understanding why I am turned off (or should I say turned on) to these experiences on a subconscious level.
You may be addicted to the stress or pain and you don't even know it. It's taken time for me to take inventory on my experiences and investigate my behaviors with compassion and acceptance.
This may seem extreme to take it this far (it was just a movie), but there is much meaning in my experience. So much that it has me typing this at 1 AM to shift and release this energy (a stress response to old behaviors I'm working through).
We had erotic sex midway through the movie, and a part of me is sure that looking back on it, was a total trauma response to the side of me that was addicted to the stress, eroticisms and the pleasure pain principle.
I sat beneath Father Sky and the Great Mother entwining me from all directions, I lit my tobacco and asked for their attention, most of all, I asked for forgiveness. Sure, there are worse things to be forgiven for than watching a trauma-induced movie, but it triggered something in me for a reason. A reason of recognition. Recognition of myself, my emotions, my behaviors and my response to those behaviors.
After watching and opening discussing with my partner about this agreement we both mutually signed into (another way of me saying turning on a drama that fed both of our pain bodies simultaneously), we decided to watch movies and docs that are educational and empowering, HAHA!
Stress and adversity open the door to change and growth.
This experience has allowed me to look at where I have a tendency to suppress my emotions, and rather than "stuff my feelings" with sex, food, or movies, I can choose to REFLECT and TRUST my process.
You can choose to recognize your relationships, and stress responses' influence on your energetic body and observe the experience with patience. It's not about getting rid of it, but rather integrating and becoming the observer.
"And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about."―Haruki Murakami
Be gentle on yourself. Sometimes my mind has a tendency to skip ahead a few steps but then I have gratitude for the step that I am standing on right now, this is the most important step of all because I am here right now! How liberating, right!?
Feed the animal in you which brings you joy and pleasure! Anything less is a dis-service to yourself. Take intentional action on things which are serving your greatness... you're a star!!!
I've come from a codependent upbringing. During childhood and teen years, my parents were "abusing" themselves with alcohol and other fixes, and at a very young age, I witnessed this behavior and confused it for love.
Do you ever feel so stuck, you're just praying for the signs to be heard and answered? My prayers were answered, at least for today. Tomorrow is the unknown. Something so simple can spark such great inspiration. And so, in times of chaos and duality, the one thing we can control is ourselves, our focus, and our attitude towards a person, place or thing.
Now that I am an adult, I am experiencing love at first hand and I recognize my tendency to avoid it or "run away" from it, as my little child had done or made the decision to do when she was vulnerable and afraid.
Now that I am an adult, I am my own mother to my inner child. I know that previous illusions of "love" can be dissolved and I don’t need to hide away or run from current relationships (including the relationship with myself) because I know what is safe and supportive for me (and my inner child). I have the opportunity to tell her she is safe and she can be direct about how she feels and when she feels it (and then I give her a long embrace, literally.)
What Our Society Says About Feelings
Our culture splits our feelings into two categories: good and bad. Anger, pain, fear and shame are labeled as bad or negative. Joy, passion and love are considered good or positive. Pia Mellody (Facing Codependence) says that "this sort of black and white categorizing is erroneous and dysfunctional.
We are constantly being labeled and worrying about which emotions are acceptable or not. This puts a lot of pressure on us! For example, if a man is afraid, he's a coward. It's acceptable for a woman to be afraid because she is weak and vulnerable, but if a woman is angry then she is a witch, but a man's anger is him exerting his power…" it’s all a bunch of crap!
Another message society imposes on us is that pain is not acceptable (for men or women). The code I interpret when I hear this is that "I don’t have a right to have pain, or I am not worthy of pain, so I should take what I need to numb it", which leads to higher rates of drug and alcohol abuse/ addictions.
Pia says that, "wisdom and maturity come from facing pain and learning from it... we are a nation of very immature people who don’t have the willingness to experience the pain that leads to authentic wisdom. We haven't learned how to tolerate pain and deal with it as an agent of positive change."
"Emotional damage most profoundly sabotages our lives as adult codependents," says Pia. The moment I decided to understand my emotional numbness (rather than being in denial of it) and slowly open to feel is one great step towards liberation!
A behavior that codependents often have trouble expereincing is setting functional boundries and owning and expressing their own reality. Their needs and wants get mixed up in a storm of what other people need and want (people pleasing) and their personal expression is not being met moderately, nor is it being owned. I've always been very passive aggressive in my words and actions. And up until now, I didn’t realize it was a defect, I took pride in it. (HA!)
I can relate a lot to this… in fact, I am slowly recovering from this dysfunctional, less-than nurturing "parenting" style. As a child, it was all that I knew, the intensity was normal and if I didn’t feel this intensity in myself, in my relationships, sex life, family, food… then I thought something is wrong with me! And worse, I tried to numb myself (and my emotions) for many years in thinking that my behavior was valid and sane when in fact, the more I come to think of it, my life had become unmanageable!
A Willingness to Heal
In Pia Mellody's, Facing Codependence, she explains that feeling healthy emotions is a positive experience. And that as long as each emotion is expressed in a healthy and functional way (not bypassing or numbing), each of our emotions has a specific purpose and can serve as a teacher for us! Below are core emotions and perspective on each:
Joy gives us hope and a sense of abundance or "I have enough."
Passion gives us an energy that motivates us to create and to survive.
Love is a sense of warmth for self or another that motivates us to treat ourselves and others well. It gives us a sense of inherent worth.
Anger gives us the strength we need to do what is necessary to take care of ourselves. We can use anger in a healthy way to our own best interest by facing it and expressing it in non-abusive ways (to ourselves or to other support).
Fear helps us protect ourselves. We become alert to the possibility of danger when we feel fear, that way we can safely protect ourselves. Healthy fear keeps us from getting into relationships that would not be in our own best interest. (A question I asked myself during meditation... "Would... be of my best interest? "Would it be of my best interest to...?" and so on... listening to my body's reaction/ and considering your heart).
Pain motivates us to grow towards increasing maturity. Life is full of pain-producing "problems", that is normal and healthy. Feeling the pain produces growth, ability to heal from past events, and a maturity to learn and move on. Repressing the pain and not facing it (or medicating/ abusing substance in some way) keeps us injured and immature.
Guilt is a healthy warning system telling us we have transgressed a value we considered to be important. Meaning, what you thought was important and was previously damaged/ hurt by it, is serving as a gentle sign for you to recognize your behavior and evolve. By feeling our guilt, we can shift our behavior and decide to live up to our values.
Shame tells us that we are imperfect and that we are not God. Although, according to our culture, we may feel shame but "we're not supposed to talk about it... our lives are filled with experiences of shame." Pia says, "codependency is a shame-based illness and it's hard to recover when the one thing we need to talk about is not supposed to be revealed or discussed." Our own healthy shame serves as a reminder to self that we are perfectly imperfect (as I like to say), and we can learn to be accountable and responsible for our own actions and the world around us.
Walking Through the Door
These times bring up so much uncertainty. In a world with so much chaos echoing all around us, it is most important that we listen to our greatest M.V.P... our heart!! As well as trust ourselves and ask ourselves, "What is most important for me right now?" or "What is good for my soul right now?".
I've been the "love avoidant" all my life, because I witnessed a distorted version of love as a child and decided back then to turn away or "avoid" love. Now that I am an adult, I can walk through the shadows, pain and sorrow (all those "black" emotions") and allow them to come up and out without judgement or shame. This is so liberating! I can now see and feel with a new pair of spectacles (and an ever evolving skin suit)! But of course, I had to experience all that I did to come to this realization, how magical!
These days bring so much distortion and it is hard to tell what is true and what is false. Asking ourselves, "What is true?" or "Is it true for me?" is a good place to start when making decisions about your future!! Let's not forget to always invite JOY and PLAY into our relationships, intents, words, and actions!!
It is okay to ask for clarity and take as much time as we need to process our daily experiences. Imagine you get in a car accident and the little child is in the back seat... post accident, everyone is safe, but the little child is traumatized by such an extreme experience. We have to hold our inner child and tell him/ her that we are okay, we are going to be safe, and allow as much time as you need to walk through the door. I always say "take baby steps" or as my mentor says "micro-commitments". And remember, saying "no" is a sentence. When you say "no" to someone else, you say "yes" to yourself.
“Even when I detach, I care. You can be separate from a thing and still care about it.” ― David Levithan
Featured Photo @rosa.scipion
Other photos taken by me on my most recent adventure to Kauai
Highly recommend books "Love Addiction" and "Facing Codependency" by Pia Mellody
I have always been a passionate advocate for water... consistently sharing my insights and new research on water as the ultimate "elixir of life". It is about time that I take advantage of our resourceful platforms and share the sacred knowledge that water presents for us, as a tool for transformation, as we weave the tapestry of creative consciousness in our lives. To understand yourself, you need to understand water. It is that simple.
The human brain can hold up to 1000 terabytes of information (There are 1000 gigabytes in 1 terabyte, you do the math.) That is a whole lot of space, it makes you wonder. To simplify, 75% of the mass of our brain is water. A single drop of water holds an excessive amount of information which serves as the ultimate vehicle for transportation within our body. Our brain, blood, heart, muscles, lungs, kidney's, liver, skin... are all major organs which function, due to the sacred presence of water. The most sacred intelligence surges within the cells of your body, the water within you.
"Water creates the structure of our DNA and proteins. A seed or embryo, which acts as the carrier of the biological intelligence that is the determiner and means of change, begins in water." A mother, by nature, provides a safe space for her baby and its development in a watery sack, also known as "the womb". The womb is a sacred passageway between "life and death".
Water has Memory
New revelations suggest that water is the medium of consciousness. Water receives and makes an imprint of any outside influence, remembering anything that occurs in the space around it. Any substance that comes into contact with water leaves a trace on it. The malleable structure of water is far more significant than the chemical composition (which we were taught in school). Professor Roy Rustum compared the molecular structure of water to the letters of the alphabet. With this knowledge, we can arrange word, create word, or change word, in which "word" acts as memory within the water.
Evidence suggests, "the geometric clustering of water molecules are altered by the subtlest of influences. Hundreds of thousands of information panels constitute these geometric structures. They register energetic imprints from substances, activities, and the frequency of thought to which water has been exposed." Our connection to Source exists in the same way a water molecule shape-shifts within its environment: transparent and reflective.
Water picks up our creative manifestations (blindly or not) and carries it into physical existence. We are literally embodied as creative codes transmuting infinitely forever. And we wonder why the collective is experiencing a state of disharmony, why our bodies are sick, our human connections distant, our own body as a foreign entity... ya'll are fucking thirsty.
Emotions and Water
Like a stone thrown into water, (I love this metaphor), every thought, feeling, sensation, and emotion is a wave in the collective pool of consciousness.
Newton claimed, "For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction." Energy in motion, our "e-motions", reflect back to us our greatest discoveries, serving as a teacher for our relations. Because of the prevailing role our emotions play in our virtual reality, water is strongly influenced by our emotions.
The frequency of "prayer" or "intent", communicates to the water inside our bodies to either change, carry, and/or reflect the vibration in which it was charged with. We are simply giant water containers conducting currents, bouncing off one another, within the universal matrix or Mother Earth (who is also a giant water container or"womb").
Breath master, Leonard Orr, taught that thought is creative. If thought is creative, and water is capable of physically taking on the form of our thoughts, therefore, water is creative, and as "water beings", our "dharma", is to be like water, or come home to "water consciousness" as the source of our existence.
Bruce Lee said it best, "I said empty your mind, be formless, shapeless. Now if you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup, you put it in a bottle it becomes the bottle, you put it in a tea pot it becomes the tea pot. Now water can flow, or it can crash. Be water my friend."
Tap Water Kills
Commonly used waters propose some serious health effects.
Tap water is a healthier option than other beverages, but according to the Environmental Working Group, there have been 315 pollutants found in America's tap water since 2004, and over half of these pollutants are completely unregulated and can legally exist and absorb in any amount when you wash your hands or veggies under running tap water. You don't see the alchemy taking place, but a whopping six times more chlorine gets absorbed into our bodies through our lungs and skin tissue while taking a warm shower than if we were to drink tap water. (You probably haven't even thought about the water from your shower or when you or your kids take a bath until now!)
With the current status of contamination in our communities, the public has grown more curious, and health conscious about the truth within their water and are taking steps in facilitating healthier alternatives.
Bottle Water Kills
Bottled water is not necessarily healthier than tap water and yet it costs much more! Although associated with healthy water, bottled water is not guaranteed to be any healthier than tap water.
The commonly used misleading claims about "alkaline" serve as a cover up to the unregulated safety standards of bottled water. "Alkaline" can only be marketed if the water is above a 7.0 pH (7.0 being the pH of our blood; our body's neutral state). This means that corporations add synthetic minerals such as calcium, sodium, and magnesium, to inorganically raise the water's pH, to claim water as "alkaline". These claims which suggest that alkaline water gives your body “superior hydration” is completely false, and has no sound supporting evidence; those of which are scientifically proven to have no greater benefit than drinking other bottled water or tap water.
The excessive amount of toxic chemicals that leak into the bottled water from the plastic it is contained in, has major health hazards to our body and overall health. It takes, on average, 3-6 months for your ordinary water bottle to hit the shelves your local store, allowing any potential "active minerals" to loose its charge (true alkaline ionized water can only last up to 24 hours before it begins to loose its pH properties of holding a highly "alkaline state" within its mass). So how can any bottle water have health benefits (proper hydration/ detoxification) if it's been on the shelf for weeks, if not months?
On the environmental impacts, "According to IBISWorld analyst Nate Gelman, out of the 6 billion pounds of plastic bottles thrown away every year, only about 30% of them are recycled, leaving a mountainous 86% in the landfill. Most manufacturers package their bottles with toxic contaminants that often contain carcinogenic compounds. The only benefit of bottled water is the convenience aspect, as something you can take on-the-go. But is the convenience worth all the environmental consequences?"
Canteens and glass bottles are a sustainable alternative to incorporate into your lifestyle (if you haven't already) to ensure a safe environment for your water, your body, and the environment you live. Shop your superior glass bottle and string holder here https://knottbrand.com/.
The Healthy Solution
How can you be assured access to healthy, clean, and sustainable drinking (and showering) water? Allow me to introduce to you ENAGIC. ENAGIC is a 40+ year old Japanese water technology company that has been the #1 leader in manufacturing water ionization systems all over the globe! With their advanced technology, Enagic's "Kangen machines" sit counter-top and dispense a total of 6 different antioxidant-rich, hydrogen-rich, mineral-rich water types for your health and household.
Kangen means "return to origin" in Japanese. It is no doubt they've connected the source of longevity, success, and happiness to their very own "fountain of youth" dispenser. Fortunately, I recently invested in my very own machine (and Anespa shower filter!) to fully experience the energetic benefits of the electrified Kangen water... along with my family, whom also love the versatility it shares in our home at the touch of a screen.
Flow Like Water
I will dive deeper into the science behind the Kangen machine in another post. For now, I encourage you to challenge the things you hear and see. True health comes from within. Your sacred codes are within you and only you have the power to tap into those authentic codes. Speak to your water as you would speak to your inner child, with gratitude and patience. Offer your service to others as the abundant flow of prosperity manifests within loving acts of kindness and compassion.
Weave your creations into the tapestry of the universe. After all, you are the creator and the water within you is surging with the ebb and flow of universal consciousness. Flow baby flow.... and come home to water consciousness.
Featured Photo by Timmy Verheul (@timmyvcreative) of Dani for Billabong Women's Australia
Do you ever wonder why you cannot fully meditate? Put it this way, meditation without the heart is like thinking without the mind. Mediation is feeling, while thinking is using your cognitive brain. Do you get where I am going with this? Rather than using your head in practicing a meditative state, practice scanning your feelings and body awareness, such as breathing. Being a volunteer for the world is the "work" of the soul, and one who takes the courageous leap, walks the path of the warrior. Just as a child graduates from crawling to walking, our human experience is celebrated every time we take a breath.
So what brought you here? Something greater than the very existence of life itself created this moment now; in fact, you created this moment right now for something else to unfold and so on in the spiral of time.
I will be up front with you now. I have been releasing a lot of emotion, some days it comes out of no where, I'll be driving and then "Whoosh", waves of emotion, feelings of loneliness, crash into my core. Other days, I am "triggered" by my mamma; whom is simply extending her unconditional love and service to me at every moment. I used to fail to realize the pure awareness and lucidity within the situation at hand. The biggest revelation I've had (and keep coming back to) is simply that we are all reflections of one another. Why for some people we can feel so fluid and free in expression, while others bring out the angry little child? Perhaps it's the little child whom we have not given the attention to in the first place and we need to comfort them most right now. These moments of "trigger" are created by your higher-self to bring you face to face with the facet that you are invited to uncover and clean the dust away. It's like a spiritual service; when you receive the invitation, you are invited to the "shadow work" at play; and therefore, initiate what you need to do (breathe; cry; scream; share; dance) to surrender to the little gremlin within.
Relationships are a service which allow us to grow and evolve. The "shadow" moments are simply dark spaces being illuminated by the light to help you shift out of an old way of being, or out of your head, and into your heart.
In a world where we all are fueled by heart, there would be no "low frequency emotions" (anger, fear, jealously, resentment) because everyone reflects one another, the great mirror. All people recognize love and compassion in the heart of a stranger and within the heart of a loved one. This is ultimate oneness. This is who we are.
The concept of separation is worth bringing up. Separation is a head thing (yep, same system that we discussed in the first sentence about meditation). Our (ego) mind created separation. It's a game our mind likes to play for the sake of its own entertainment purposes. The "imbalance" of our nature is that we were conditioned to believe the "duality" is our truth. We lived a majority of our lives practicing it in action, and therefore, if we dissolve the illusion of separation, we dissolve our physical existence and we see the world through spiritual eyes, as one whole body pulsating together.
According to Heart Math, "The human body has a magnetic field, with the heart being the strongest source in the body for electromagnetic activity. The heart generates the largest electromagnetic field in the body, about 60 times greater in amplitude than the brain waves."
Leonard Orr says, "When the mind is at peace, the body is enjoying what it's doing." Take a deep breath right now. Your breath is connected to the plants outside, the breath of your partner in the other room, the breaths of all whom once did breathe in this atmosphere. The connection with our breath awakens the connection to our heart. Your heart is your true north, the graduation from mind to heart, creativity thrives here.
Breath is like an alchemy; just like our creativity is to the heart. If you transform one, you transform the other.
In truth, not everyone will be there when you need them. We cannot rely on outside forces to lead us home. The path home is simply the walk, hand in hand, with your breath. That's who will guide you... never underestimate the power of the breath. I encourage you to study each other, practice and experiment. You will gracefully feel the oneness dancing within you, and you will fully experience the unlocking of your heart in full synchronicity, full power, guiding you home.
If "returning home" (returning to your breath vs. your mind) is the ultimate ecstasy; a time for celebration, and the graduation within our soul, then how can we create more heart coherence?
Dan Brule teaches Focus, Consistency, and Commitment, in his best seller "Just Breathe", as the big three to direct your spiritual practice in achieving conscious breath awareness. He says, "Breathwork is like a spiritual discipline." The more we focus and create unlimited compatibility with our heart, the more time dissolves, our intuition increases, psychic senses are activated, and our creativity rises like the reborn phoenix.
No one said it would be easy, though, a meaningful challenge is essential for the celebration of our souls. Breathing is the dance of your soul, so let us support each other in the union of our ever-expanding hearts; create our wildest dreams, and open portals to universes through the transmission of our beating drum within.
As above so below, as within so without.
In Lak'ech Ala K'in
(Pronounced "in-la-kesh-a-la-kin". Mayan for "I am you and you are me.")
Thank you for receiving my humble truth. Visuals are by Rosa Scipion at Villa P.O.E.M., in Bali. Enjoy the rest 🙂
What's a leader? What defines a leader in our world? We have been conditioned to think that a leader is someone outside of us; which can be true; although, in times like these, we must center on our inner (cheer) leader.
Think of anyone who's always intrigued you, challenged your beliefs, caused you to feel a certain way, sad, happy, angry; someone that inspires you... why? What qualities do they possess that allows you to put so much of your attention on them?
In truth, we cannot be looking outside for the answers. We can be curious and ask for help, but it is certain that your answers are already stored in your very own tool box; the toolbox called your heart. Your intuition is your most sacred and valuable tool, which has been given to you to use to navigate this earth and the life that you create for yourself. We are so fortunate. Not only do we have a heart to navigate, we have a mind to constantly challenge incoming and existing thoughts and beliefs that we encounter everyday.
With our heart to come to for direction when we are stuck, our mind to process our internal dialogue, and our spirit which embodies our physical... who would fear intimacy with such an intelligent creature? We were never taught how to consume, digest, process, store, purge, and heal... as complex as life may seem, it is so simple you see. I could (and I have) spent lifetimes simply discovering and uncovering my own body's unique and authentic faucets. This is part of my process. Your process may be completely different.
When we love our individual process and we honor our metamorphosis, our transformation becomes like a drug, and we fall madly in love with our "home".
The difference between us and an animal is that an animal knows one thing: survival. On the other hand, we are given the gift of intuition; a direct connection to Source/ God itself, a connection that created us, drives us, and powers our sole/soul purpose here on this wonderful Earth. Because we hold the tool for being/ existing in our core, we are meant to lead others which have not discovered their tools yet, on the path of discovery, to let them know, "hey you have a toolbox, if you need help using it, I am here to guide you, but you possess it, it is not going anywhere, and it will bring you home".
The process to discovery is meant to be challenging. If it was easy, we wouldn't need tools. We don't need to know where we are going and we don't need to put pressure on ourselves. Pressure comes from conditioning of society, conditioning of the self and how we should be, who we should be; we weren't given a manual at birth, a manual that says who you are and what you will do. No, that would be boring and meaningful and completely lifeless... you might as well be dead. So now you see why it is okay to feel lost, lonely, and vulnerable, it is our nature (only for a short time). We are given tools (I am referring to your heart, intuition, mind and body), tools to pick up, and practice, again and again and again.
I came into this body with one big heart and so did you. I possess a heart that feels for your heart and that wants to play and unite other hearts. Drop all expectations and beliefs of being separate from one another. You are alive right now to make clear your "why", your reason for being on this planet at this time, because by you being alive in a fully functioning body (you could not have a body or a leg or something... think how fortunate you are); you are beautiful because you are you.
Think back to the leaders.... what makes them so powerful to you? They are so incredibly different from you... and you are so different from them. They have a purpose, a message to convey to the masses, and guess what, so do you. Have that conversation with yourself, what brings you joy? Why are we all here connected to each other? The answer is to unite and empower each other in authentic ways.
Why are we faced with challenges and with the constant illusion of fear blanketing the earth? It is there for us to observe and detach from the low vibration. Break out your toolbox, the earth is under construction right now, and same for each of us individually.
Its time to lay out all your tools, observe, touch, study, wonder, and make use of the time for ultimate pleasure. As much as you may want to pull up a "how to..." with all the resources we have available at our fingertips, always challenge what you see and hear, and use the knowledge as a stepping stone as you pave your path to your almighty heart. This is not the time to detour another way because all paths lead to your heart. That being the case, face your truth now so you can lead together. If you want to detour that's cool too, do what you have to do. Only you know whats best for you.
Be like the little child that has all the toys/ tools scattered all over the floor, picking one up, one at a time, going slow and existing in you right now for a reason. Tune into its vibration and share conversation with it. The whole universe is working with you to be breathing right now. Create the moment. Craft a story. Build a strong foundation for your empire. You have to clean up all the toys if you want to start a new project.
Use this time (because you have and you always will, have all the time in the world) to pick up the pieces and clear the space/ unwanted energy that isn't serving you or your higher self. Start there. Take your time. One block at a time. You got this. Let's concentrate on our toolbox so much that we can trust one another to operate in each others field. It is essential that we show up for our individual process while showing up with acceptance and compassion for each other. Facilitating in the healing of the collective is the foundation of our future.
You are your own (cheer) leader. Focus your energy and emotion on what brings you joy and pleasure and plant this seed deep into the rich soil. Nourish your seed with patience, pure water, high alkaline foods (plant-based), a strong like-minded conscious community, peace, loving thoughts, and courageous work. Craft the spaceship of your dreams... then don't stop there... keep creating and helping others craft. We are one heart. Let's work on the construction of our home together. We need each other. We are coming home.
"Leadership is ultimately about creating a way for people to contribute to making something extraordinary happen."
Think about a the state of a baby. The abundance of nature happening all around them remains interlinked with their true nature. Their breath is in effortless harmony with the gust of the wind, their emotions express a bird's deprived cry, they don't know the difference between their mother's warm embrace or an animals furry hug because all is love in their big sparkling eyes. No one has conditioned the baby (yet), or made them believe what is right or wrong, good or bad, who they are or what role they have to play. Their very existence is one with everything that surrounds them. As above, so below.
"We live in a world where we are taught that to survive we need to be strong (masculine) and that vulnerability (feminine) is something negative or dangerous."
Most of us, in some form or another, have grown up disconnected from the core of what makes us human, our feelings, and this plays a major role in our view of the world and the relationships we have. We are told at a young age that doctors are the ones to heal us, fix us, and make us feel better when we feel "bad". Under acute circumstances, we are given "medicine" or directed to take some form of action to mend what's been "off" in our body. Over the years, we are prescribed remedies for a short term-effective fix, or worse, medications on a long term basis to cure chronic illness. Observing the relationship between the vehicle (your body) and the driver (your mind) will open doors in which you didn't know existed before. The solution is simple: you drive your body or let your body drive you.
Every memory we have in our life imprints in our cells. Those cells dictate our response to reality and the world around us. Rather than letting your anger or stress control you, take responsibility for what you feel right now. When you no longer associate yourself as a "victim" of your environment or body, you literally step into your super power as an awakened conscious human being. It's as if the Gods descended from the heavens above and bestowed super powers upon you. The Gods have already chosen you and your super power(s), its called birth.
"When we learn to respond to hurt in new and healthy and empowering ways, we literally are changing the chemistry of hurt in our bodies." (Gregg Braden)
We are human... sometimes we give our power away, or loose ourselves in the illusion of reality, and/or have weird days... that's okay and that is what makes this life so authentic! Embrace your weirdness (your super power) and draw your boundaries. Don't give too much power away to your doctor, nor to your best friend. Listen to your body and follow its feeling. Strive for a harmonic balance between a healthy diet, exercise, conscious breathing, and self-love. When your body feels good, so do you!
If you are stuck and need some guidance in accessing your super power to heal yourself and the collective, tune into your heart. "The heart knows the correct answer because it taps into the field of pure potentiality and infinite organizing power, and takes everything into account. The heart is intuitive and holistic; it has a win-win orientation. And though the answer may not seem rational, the heart is far more accurate than anything within the realm of rational thought." (The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success).Trust your hearts guidance. It will lead you down the path of highest protection and unconditional support.
Joe Dispenza says, "the power that made the body heals the body." The day you wake up and tell your body/ brain differently, you begin to train your body and mind into new ways of being.
We are like very intelligent animals. We create our environment which dictates the way our body responds to its surroundings. If you don’t tell yourself something different, your body goes into "sleep mode" and you are like a robot repeating the same patterns over and over.
Your environment (habitat, daily rituals, relationships,...) is a direct reflection of your internal manifestations. "The quantum field responds not to what we want; it responds to who we are being.” The only one who can physically and mentally heal you is you.
It is our nature to experience the unknown and gain different perspectives, weather that be with plant medicine, holistic healers, mediums, therapists, doctors, support groups, all are valid and some-what reliable, yet, at the end of the day, it's up to you to do the work and mutate the way you live day to day. Honor your intuition. Sometimes, it's just as simple as taking a breath.
The path of knowledge means taking responsibility for everything that you believe to be "yours" in this physical world (in reality, nothing physically belongs to you; you belong to the earth, and you will go back to the earth when you die/ reincarnate). It is our consciousness, our super powers, that drive us forward to ascend higher and higher. We are not meant to simply exist, we are meant to thrive.
“Hearts united in pain and sorrow will not be separated by joy and happiness. Bonds that are woven in sadness are stronger than the ties of joy and pleasure. Love that is washed by tears will remain eternally pure and faithful.” ―Khalil Gibran, Love Letters in the Sand: The Love Poems of Khalil Gibran
I felt called to channel these words for two reasons, one, it is relevant (because it's what I am going through, which means you feel it too), and two, I developed my disposable film in which the portrayal of "ethereal oneness" was embodied in the raw moments I captured.
"Ethereal oneness" being the eternal, delicate, airy energy that surrounds us, "in between the spaces" energy which fills our cosmos. Sometimes we can't see it, other times it unfolds in a form of "coincidence", personal revelation, or simple acts of service. Whether you are present or not, it is present in you. You are connected to the person sitting across the room, the man waiting for the bus half-way around the world, the bird chirping in the Amazon forest, the fish swimming in the Pacific Ocean, the trees breathing outside... we are warm-blooded, breathing beings. We need love and nurturing, juicy colorful plants for nutrition, mineral-rich water for hydration, loving human connection, and most importantly, conscious breathing.
I first came to Bali August of 2016. Looking back at my experience, I distracted myself with the over-indulging night life, drugs, and external pleasures, leading to depression and even more suppression of my feelings. It wasn't until now, three years later, that I stepped out of the illusion I was creating and came heart to heart with my inner child.
Our life is an equal manifestation of light and dark. We are eternal beings, subconsciously striving for a balance in all areas of our existence. It is easy to consume all the bountiful fruits when the sun is shining, although, when we take a step back, we are practically drowning in the sensory overload of the illusion. We are surrounded by lush pleasure, but, we are also surrounded by darkness, which we have been suppressing in our own life.
If we keep running, how will we integrate and understand our heart's desires? Bali will greet you (if she hasn't already), at the golden gateway and it may not be as shimmering as you previously fantasized it to be. Take a sacred pause and honor what you feel right now.
We are all scared and feel all types of ways, its part of our human experience. You are beginning to wake up. You are becoming more conscious of the world around you. Your inner world is a reflection of your outer world. Do you like what you see? Are you happy with your progress? Are you scared? Do you feel worthy of the projections you created in your life?
You don't need the validation. Your feeling is the validation. Embrace yourself and pleasure in your very own existence.
Perhaps you have had bizarre experiences when your feet touch the land, serendipitous encounters, freak accidents, traumatic releases, search for self, whatever may be your calling, you are here for a reason, and that reason being valid because you are experiencing it. Put yourself first in your healing process, but also, pay your respect to the Island of the Gods.
Everything we receive is a blessing in disguise.
Honor everything that you receive. Make a prayer or short blessing. Take a moment in silence. Be still with the offering. Take a few deep breaths. Thank the universe for its presence in your hands (or for this moment if its not a physical gift). Embrace each layer of it (and of you) with compassion and love.
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The following images are a collection of what my disposable film captured in the rawness of time. To my surprise, the light decided to take a green dance all over the projections... it is what you make of it.
Gaze, ponder, shift your perspective, turn it upside down, zoom in, zoom out. See your reflection mirrored in the grain. Open your heart to her cry. Offer your heart to her existence.
To my brothers and sisters, do not hesitate to reach out for help. You are heard. Thank you for your presence. 🙂
splendor (noun): magnificent and splendid appearance
"All Aboard, Splendour!"
'Splendour' was her name. On this day, we (two sisters visiting from Spain and a brother; one happy family of four) boarded her rustic dark stained wood. We were greeted by the local Indonesian family of staff, whom were to accompany us for the next few days at sea around Flores in East Indonesia.
At the time, I had no idea of what was going to be of these next days. I try not to make sense of anything and leave it simply up to the flow of the sea. I always expect the least. I imagined being on the boat for a few days, so I had previously packed acrylic paints/watercolors and a book to keep us entertained and to channel creativity for those inspirational moments at sea (I find I am most in flow and creative in nature). There is nothing like fun, loving company, but you know how it is when you just want to retreat and read or paint to the melody of her crashing waves.
Don't let the splendid appearance fool you―The moments when I allowed myself to open up, dare to feel vulnerable, only then, I began to sink deep into her crevices, where mystery unfolds, its dark and unknown. The path which I was conditioned to know is an illusion. My being becomes One with the intuitive curiosity whirling around me, a journey in which I will never want to swim on the surface again.
August 23, 2019 7:03 AM
Floating off the coast of Komodo Island, a crow pays a visit to me as I wake on the top deck after a windy night under the stars. There is always something special about being on the water―an energy I can't describe, I just feel at One.
My cells dance with the ocean's body and orchestrate a flow of timeless energy.
We spent moments under the half beaten sun, snorkeling, hiking, eating, swimming, walking barefoot on the earth, napping in the shade, laughing, meditating... the highlight of my day was getting towed by the little boat and surfing behind it. The sun set behind a nearby island on the eastern horizon.
The moon will rise soon. I had a revelation while watching a school of 'tongkol' fish (like baby tunas) orchestrate this dance near the yellow light of our boats edge ― This dream, reality, what to call it, I cannot say, it's a feeling, stuff exists, a fish dances in harmony with the other fish. How did it get here? It's nature is to dance and feed. It is One. When I observe its harmonious dance with the school of fish, time disappears, there isn't a name to classify their existence. It breathes water, it doesn't see water like we do, nor does it have a consciousness to attach to the knowing (our "ego"), it was simple, it was honest, it was natural, the fish go to the light and they dance all night.