February 22, 2022No Comments

2/22/22 Dream Waves Portal

On the evening of February 21, 20222, I had a pretty mellow night, to say the least. I showered, ate a light meal of a small Japanese sweet potato and sauerkraut, finishing an episode on Gaia TV about Human Design. I was cleaning out my ear wax with hydrogen peroxide. (This is a great way to remove excess wax buildup, just pour a few drops of HP and allow it to bubble away!) After using the bulb to flush my ears out with water, a ton of wax came rushing out of my ears. You could say that the first stage of the opening of a canal was complete, literally.

I crawled into bed around 10:30PM. I read for 30 minutes and then I was over it. Stretched for 5 minutes on my bed. I picked up my vibrator and took some pleasure in it. Over that too. My body was tired but my mind was active, eventually I tried to sleep.

What felt like hours of dream waves, dreams unfolding into more dreams, me tossing and turning in bed, restless as fuck, realistically, the dreams cycled through my psyche in a series of seconds.

Nightmares for Healing

The first dream wave took me on this journey through a push and pull "violation of my body" nightmare running from the villain, a man is out to get me, pursuing an attack on me, violating my vehicle... the same pattern has come up for me over and over in my dreams.

Guidance note: As I'm writing this, I hear a cat meowing. I opened my front door and a cat was sitting there on my doorstep. I've never seen this cat before. It was shy, we made eye contact and it went on it's path. The symbolism.

The dreams of "my vehicle being violated" (the vehicle in my dreams symbolize my body) has been a very relevant pattern for me. Doris E. Cohen shares in her book "Dreaming on Both Sides of the Brain", that when we experience reoccurring dreams, it's like our subconscious is nudging us over and over, to the point where it can become nightmarish, and really get our attention, in order for us to heal and change a subconscious pattern. Our dreams are like a bridge between the masculine analytical and logical conscious self (right side of the brain) and the feminine unconscious, intuitive self (left side of the brain). Remember that the next time you have a reoccurring dream.

Years ago, I experienced a "rape". (Even now I am attempting to make it smaller than it seems by inserting the quotes around rape, hmm fascinating.) At the time, I wasn't saying I was raped because it made me feel powerless. To identify myself as a victim of rape felt very disempowering. My body's natural response to stress, "fight, flight or freeze" kicked in, and my body froze up.

I've created a wall around love to protect myself from this trauma (a memory our body holds onto) and it isn't serving me anymore. Clearly my subconscious is signaling me to heal and shift out of this old story! Isn't that just lovely spirit medicine!?

Enter the the Dreamworld

Still tossing and turning, a sleepless night that felt endless; like I was "falling" down a tunnel in the dream world...

You could say I landed (enter the dream) under the mother tree of all trees. Shady, grassy, supportive and safe, overlooking the complex grid of the Earth, we were higher up, closer to the heavens, kind of like how the Greeks made Mount Olympus, the temple of the Gods, elevated above all of Athens (which I had the pleasure to experience right after my transformational rebirth breathwork experience in Greece last September 2021).

This dream spoke codes of higher consciousness, paradigm death, purpose and soul mission. The tree was like a transformer or AI that was at war in the sky, it got shot down, came plunging through the sky, landed, rooted in its heaviness and density, and began to display a visual transmission. The man who was "attacking me" in my previous nightmare, was invited by the AI Mother Tree to call a conference. We sat in harmony, observing a large array of technological computer codes imbedded in the trees complex, archives that were way beyond my understanding, we sat side by side, heart and heart, while the wise tree projected something very specific... a visual of the sphynx of Egypt aligning exactly to the tip of the pyramid. The sphynx was licking the tip of the pyramid and this meant the ending or "death of the sphynx era".

Because this is my dream, the symbols (sphinx, tree, pyramid) are relevant to me and my life. Based off my personal interpretation, the sphynx represents a feline, guardian protector energy. The pyramid represents light, unlimited energy, and power. And the sphynx "licking" the tip of the pyramid represents an intimacy, coming into contact with and duality that exists. It's also a very playful energy too! 😜 The lick is symbolic of the bridge between the guardian and the temple, victim consciousness and unity consciousness, the conscious and subconscious. The death of the sphynx paradigm is here.

Individually (this is what it feels like for me) and collectively, that we are transiting through the birth canal, contractions occurring, in the process of being "pushed through" by the mother tree (nature, natural laws, love and compassion). This day opens the portal to a potent rebirth (yet it's important to note that this process takes time and if you feel like you find yourself rushing, forcing things, trying to do things and meeting resistance, it can and probably is related to your actual birth truama (see my last post about how our birth creates a blueprint for our life here). Give yourself some time, you are right where you need to be).

Remember Your Mission

It became very clear that the mother tree was calling us together (to rest under her simply complex branches of peace and connection) to return to our mission here on Earth. The gates of victim/ nightmare consciousness are closing and we are being called to return together as one, and remember our higher mission. Your dreams have the potential to carry you on a golden chariot through your life with ease and joy.

When a dream has many layers and details, which most of my dreams do, I will record it and come back to it for further interpretation. This time, I sketched out some pictures in my dream journal, along with the recording. The voice note ended on minute 17:17.

Angel Guidance

Since this number came up for me, that means it came up for you too. That's how I see it.

Here is the message of angel number 1717:

I repeat: You Have All That You Need Within You.

The number 1 represents creation, new energy and independence. Number 7 represents enlightenment, knowledge and higher learning. Since both numbers appear twice, this energy is AMPLIFIED.

We are being called to raise the vibrational frequency of all listeners. Don't waste your time with people who aren't listening.

Power words I've extracted from this sacred portal are unity, bridge, passion, purpose, teaching, healing, communication, wisdom, expression, creation and love.

What words spoke to you? What is one thing you learned about yourself today? What actions do you feel called to implement? How can you advance your spiritual practice? Journal on this or share in the comments below 🙂

As you transition through your process, don't forget to share your story with someone and send the light of 1000 suns to your heart and to some hearts that are close to yours. You are the creator of your reality. Step up to the dancefloor and let's get wild baby!

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See more about angel number 1717 here.

xoxo

October 5, 2021No Comments

Airport Trauma: Birth as a Blueprint for Life

The Observer

I was inspired to write this article after witnessing a friend experience what you could call "airport trauma". I was witnessing the moment unfold, but I have been in her shoes and could relate to exactly what she was feeling, powerless and small. When we are operating in a victim mentality, anything and anyone can feel like a threat.

Airports provoke a feeling or reenactment of our birth trauma. I've had many similar experiences in the airport: the fear that you aren't on time, you aren't worthy to have a seat of your choice, your bags are too much weight, you are too much, the list can go on and on.

The stress hormones that are released when we are in fight or flight mode are activated in a moment of panic. These same hormones are released, whether we are being "attacked" or not, our body doesn’t know the difference and so we are navigating in a constant state of fear or worry.

The Imprinting Process

After prolonged hours of travel and sudden shock from place to place, I am really starting to recognize how our birth imprint creates a blueprint on our physical body. Our first needs as a baby/child impact our experiences and our perception later in life (this is deep shit and when I started to make the connection, I noticed how my birth script played out in every arena of my life).

Transit comes from latin “transire”, which means to cross over. The transition or crossing over we experience during traveling is symbolic of our transition from womb to world. Traveling can be a pleasurable or a dreadful experience, depending on how you are wired (and your willingness to rewire those circuits if you aren’t enjoying yourself). What fun is traveling when we are stressed out? I think of the quote "It’s not about the destination. Life is about the journey (so take your time)."

A realization I had last night: why are people always rushing around trying to get somewhere?

The conclusion I made, most of us are born in hospitals where the main agenda is to get the baby out in a "timely manner". No wonder we feel like we are rushing to survive.

Navigating Reality

A group of us were heading home from the beautiful island of Samothraki in Greece, where we took part in the 3 week Breath and Life Mastery Training https://www.globalbreathingawareness.com/courses/breath-and-life-mastery-training. We were buzzing off the energy of the ferry (a smooth birth canal moment), and headed to the airport.

It is mandatory (the date is September 2021 of a global pandemic) to have a valid PCR or Antigen test (or a vaccine, if that’s the decision you choose to go) to board any flight domestic or international. No exceptions.

When I overheard the young girl say she took a self-test (which is not valid to fly and she knew this), I knew that she was about to reap what she sowed, the prey in a circle of predators.

There was a deep subconscious imprint that was unlocking itself. In the eyes of the girl, the airport check in representative appeared as the "aggressor" of an uncovered past trauma. It was up to her to cultivate acceptance in the moment or retreat into previous submissive patterns.

After an extended argument with the flight representative, it was made obvious she couldn’t board the flight. (I thought to myself, it costs 10 euro to take a rapid test and ride smoothly, why jump through all the loops and even risk it?) 

When it came time to navigate towards airport security, she knew she wasn’t joining us. I could see in her eyes she wanted to cry, her body trembling and hands sweaty.

Uncovering Childhood Trauma

Is it possible our school trauma is also brought up while at the airport? The fear that we aren't accepted or valuable (in the eyes of the teacher/ students) or the fear that we aren't on time (for school) then we get punished.

Perhaps we have developed a subconscious mechanism to cope with this feeling as a child. We have created a story that if we are late then we are bad, and therefore we should suffer. You did NOT come here to suffer, play small or feel inferior. 

If you remain ignorant of your natural divinity and continue to play the victim, these stress hormones will continue to shower you in any arena of your life. The airport is one context, but it's come to my attention that, if you are playing small, the world will continue to show you that you are small.

How can we feel secure in a whirlwind of chaos?

Stepping Towards Success

When you change the chemistry of your body  and signal the happy hormones, the universe will provide. And I mean it, like really provide. Because you are surrendered and you trust, the universe will show that to you. Real life examples of the universe serving me, "you have been upgraded to business class miss" "your flight is delayed, you have an abundance of time to enjoy"; you sit next to someone and you have a, "wow this is the reason I am here" moment.

I've learned over the years and many failed attempts to understand the nature of making peace with the moment. Making peace with the inside will mirror the peace you feel towards the outside. There is no separation.

All moments exist simultaneously. When you change your reaction, the world changes. When you change your breath, your physiology changes.

The same practices it takes to become a master traveler relate to those of a breathwork master, focus, discipline and persistence!!!

There are a few things that we can do to have an effortless, effervescent transit while passing through airports and in navigating life:

  1. Breathe! - Take 20 connected breaths or a few slow deep breaths to ground your body and get back into homeostasis/ into a neutral charge; in this state, you can make an aligned action/ decision.
  2. Affirm yourself in the moment - repeating affirmations in a moment of high stress will signal your mind to change your body chemistry from a state of anxiety to peace

Try this one: "IN THIS MOMENT EVERYTHING IS WORKING OUT FOR MY HIGHEST GOOD, OUT OF THIS SITUATION, ONLY GOOD WILL COME, I AM SAFE."

  1. Trust yourself - Trusting yourself is accepting yourself as you are in this moment (without the need to change anything).
  2. Acceptance - Developing self acceptance and trust that you are guided in all moments; If you don’t board the flight, consider it meant to be. (harsh but to some extent this really works! "If I couldn’t catch that bus, then maybe that was FOR me rather than against me"
  3. Gratitude - "thank you for getting me this far"; when we practice gratitude; we become aligned with the unified intelligence that is serving us at every moment
  4. Play BIG! - Don't take no for an answer, flight for what you believe you deserve!!!
  5. Have fun and laugh at yourself - Essential step to pure pleasure and enjoyment; If we take a step back at look at the big picture, "why are we so serious?"; everything is okay (even the most stress-provoking moments); in this moment, you are breathing, you are safe, you are unharmed; laughing releases happy hormones the opposite of the hormones that are provoked in traumatic experiences - develop a habit to laugh more and bathe in the happy hormones

After all, we love traveling because we can meet new people, expand our hearts and minds and see the world from a new perspective. When we cultivate our happy hormones often and navigate in a state of trust and gratitude - life will get really good!!! You become the master of your life (and the airport/ life becomes your servant rather than the other way around).

Thank you life for all my experiences because I grow and get better through the failures and mistakes. I wouldn’t exchange anything. I love the challenges because it means I am growing!!! JAYY! (Something we say in Greek, jay = victory!)