After being in Tokyo for a week, my spirit was craving raw nature. After all, my intetnion to visit Japan and live in the mountains for a month still remains a mystery... but this day adventure to Mount Kurama filled my cup, to say the least. I am still "high" after visiting this potent energetic spot.
I engaged in a traditional kimono book making workshop in Kyoto a few days ago, which I discovered through researching Japanese tea ceremony on Air B&B. (The workshop was so special to me; I highly recommend if you take pride in journaling and simple details.) I asked Yoko, the woman who led the class, alongside her father, if she had recommendations for mountain nature spots.
Apart from a few local temple recommendations, she explained to me that Mount Kurama is a mountain to the north of Kyoto. It is the birthplace of Reiki practice and is said to be the home of Sōjōbō, King of the Tengu. Kurama is also the location of the annual Kurama Fire Festival, which takes place every October. Say no more. I decided to take my day trip the next day, which happened to be Friday, November 11, 2022. 11-11-22. Everything is energy.
Since primordial times, the life-energizing vitality of Mao-son (symbol of Power), the great king of the conquerors of evil and the spirit of the Earth, has pervaded Mount Kurama. Imbued with life energy, a wide variety of life forms resides there in serenity, and the rich natural environment continuous to flourish. Since the guardian of heaven, Bishamonten (symbol of Light) and the thousand-armed Senju-kannon bodhisattva, (symbol of Love) became enshrined in the land, people have continued to gather to offer their heartfelt prayers.
At Kurama Temple today, the three venerated deities are worshipped as the trinity of Sonten (symbol of of Cosmic Energy). All those who come into contact with Mount Kurama not only receive the life energy emanating from the mountain but also become conscious of their own "shinge" (pure and innocent spirit), and look forward to the dawn of a world of peace and harmony where the lives of all people will shine with the brightest of lights.
Feel the energy in these photos. See the mountain spirits speak through the captures. Look, question, feel, reflect.
Prayer of Mount Kurama:
To create a world, where all lives shine, Beautiful as the Moon (Love) Warm as the Sun (Light) Powerful as the Earth (Power) We trust in Sonten for all things.
On the evening of February 21, 20222, I had a pretty mellow night, to say the least. I showered, ate a light meal of a small Japanese sweet potato and sauerkraut, finishing an episode on Gaia TV about Human Design. I was cleaning out my ear wax with hydrogen peroxide. (This is a great way to remove excess wax buildup, just pour a few drops of HP and allow it to bubble away!) After using the bulb to flush my ears out with water, a ton of wax came rushing out of my ears. You could say that the first stage of the opening of a canal was complete, literally.
I crawled into bed around 10:30PM. I read for 30 minutes and then I was over it. Stretched for 5 minutes on my bed. I picked up my vibrator and took some pleasure in it. Over that too. My body was tired but my mind was active, eventually I tried to sleep.
What felt like hours of dream waves, dreams unfolding into more dreams, me tossing and turning in bed, restless as fuck, realistically, the dreams cycled through my psyche in a series of seconds.
Nightmares for Healing
The first dream wave took me on this journey through a push and pull "violation of my body" nightmare running from the villain, a man is out to get me, pursuing an attack on me, violating my vehicle... the same pattern has come up for me over and over in my dreams.
Guidance note: As I'm writing this, I hear a cat meowing. I opened my front door and a cat was sitting there on my doorstep. I've never seen this cat before. It was shy, we made eye contact and it went on it's path. The symbolism.
The dreams of "my vehicle being violated" (the vehicle in my dreams symbolize my body) has been a very relevant pattern for me. Doris E. Cohen shares in her book "Dreaming on Both Sides of the Brain", that when we experience reoccurring dreams, it's like our subconscious is nudging us over and over, to the point where it can become nightmarish, and really get our attention, in order for us to heal and change a subconscious pattern. Our dreams are like a bridge between the masculine analytical and logical conscious self (right side of the brain) and the feminine unconscious, intuitive self (left side of the brain). Remember that the next time you have a reoccurring dream.
Years ago, I experienced a "rape". (Even now I am attempting to make it smaller than it seems by inserting the quotes around rape, hmm fascinating.) At the time, I wasn't saying I was raped because it made me feel powerless. To identify myself as a victim of rape felt very disempowering. My body's natural response to stress, "fight, flight or freeze" kicked in, and my body froze up.
I've created a wall around love to protect myself from this trauma (a memory our body holds onto) and it isn't serving me anymore. Clearly my subconscious is signaling me to heal and shift out of this old story! Isn't that just lovely spirit medicine!?
Enter the the Dreamworld
Still tossing and turning, a sleepless night that felt endless; like I was "falling" down a tunnel in the dream world...
You could say I landed (enter the dream) under the mother tree of all trees. Shady, grassy, supportive and safe, overlooking the complex grid of the Earth, we were higher up, closer to the heavens, kind of like how the Greeks made Mount Olympus, the temple of the Gods, elevated above all of Athens (which I had the pleasure to experience right after my transformational rebirth breathwork experience in Greece last September 2021).
This dream spoke codes of higher consciousness, paradigm death, purpose and soul mission. The tree was like a transformer or AI that was at war in the sky, it got shot down, came plunging through the sky, landed, rooted in its heaviness and density, and began to display a visual transmission. The man who was "attacking me" in my previous nightmare, was invited by the AI Mother Tree to call a conference. We sat in harmony, observing a large array of technological computer codes imbedded in the trees complex, archives that were way beyond my understanding, we sat side by side, heart and heart, while the wise tree projected something very specific... a visual of the sphynx of Egypt aligning exactly to the tip of the pyramid. The sphynx was licking the tip of the pyramid and this meant the ending or "death of the sphynx era".
Because this is my dream, the symbols (sphinx, tree, pyramid) are relevant to me and my life. Based off my personal interpretation, the sphynx represents a feline, guardian protector energy. The pyramid represents light, unlimited energy, and power. And the sphynx "licking" the tip of the pyramid represents an intimacy, coming into contact with and duality that exists. It's also a very playful energy too! ? The lick is symbolic of the bridge between the guardian and the temple, victim consciousness and unity consciousness, the conscious and subconscious. The death of the sphynx paradigm is here.
Individually (this is what it feels like for me) and collectively, that we are transiting through the birth canal, contractions occurring, in the process of being "pushed through" by the mother tree (nature, natural laws, love and compassion). This day opens the portal to a potent rebirth (yet it's important to note that this process takes time and if you feel like you find yourself rushing, forcing things, trying to do things and meeting resistance, it can and probably is related to your actual birth truama (see my last post about how our birth creates a blueprint for our life here). Give yourself some time, you are right where you need to be).
Remember Your Mission
It became very clear that the mother tree was calling us together (to rest under her simply complex branches of peace and connection) to return to our mission here on Earth. The gates of victim/ nightmare consciousness are closing and we are being called to return together as one, and remember our higher mission. Your dreams have the potential to carry you on a golden chariot through your life with ease and joy.
When a dream has many layers and details, which most of my dreams do, I will record it and come back to it for further interpretation. This time, I sketched out some pictures in my dream journal, along with the recording. The voice note ended on minute 17:17.
Angel Guidance
Since this number came up for me, that means it came up for you too. That's how I see it.
Here is the message of angel number 1717:
I repeat: You Have All That You Need Within You.
The number 1 represents creation, new energy and independence. Number 7 represents enlightenment, knowledge and higher learning. Since both numbers appear twice, this energy is AMPLIFIED.
We are being called to raise the vibrational frequency of all listeners. Don't waste your time with people who aren't listening.
Power words I've extracted from this sacred portal are unity, bridge, passion, purpose, teaching, healing, communication, wisdom, expression, creation and love.
What words spoke to you? What is one thing you learned about yourself today? What actions do you feel called to implement? How can you advance your spiritual practice? Journal on this or share in the comments below 🙂
As you transition through your process, don't forget to share your story with someone and send the light of 1000 suns to your heart and to some hearts that are close to yours. You are the creator of your reality. Step up to the dancefloor and let's get wild baby!
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It's come to my awareness that everything that comes into our field (physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally), are all serving as tools for our personal transformation on this incredibly intricate grid.
I was chatting with my girl friend the other day about how watching fear-induced films, or even the trauma we take on via social media (getting cyber bullied), has a detrimental impact on our mental health.
Our body spits out stress hormones in the case of survival. Your body doesn't know the difference between you witnessing someone get chased on a drama film or you actually getting chased by a predator.
Why is this meaningful?
You are signaling your brain that you are getting attacked (weather you are watching a movie or not) and therefore your body is in a constant state of worry or fear.
The stress shower began when I submitted to watching the 1992 Basic Instinct, an erotic thriller film featuring the seductive temptress Sharon Stone and Michael Douglass. My boyfriend turned it on. The title sounded appealing and I am a fan of 90s movies (I am a 90s baby and everything within that era appeals to me), the scene opened with an erotic sex scene, my Scorpio nature was hooked in.
I became the prey in a mind of predators.
I'm looking back at this blog draft, its been 9 months since I initially had this stress-provoking experience. I've had a deeper attention to understanding why I am turned off (or should I say turned on) to these experiences on a subconscious level.
You may be addicted to the stress or pain and you don't even know it. It's taken time for me to take inventory on my experiences and investigate my behaviors with compassion and acceptance.
This may seem extreme to take it this far (it was just a movie), but there is much meaning in my experience. So much that it has me typing this at 1 AM to shift and release this energy (a stress response to old behaviors I'm working through).
We had erotic sex midway through the movie, and a part of me is sure that looking back on it, was a total trauma response to the side of me that was addicted to the stress, eroticisms and the pleasure pain principle.
I sat beneath Father Sky and the Great Mother entwining me from all directions, I lit my tobacco and asked for their attention, most of all, I asked for forgiveness. Sure, there are worse things to be forgiven for than watching a trauma-induced movie, but it triggered something in me for a reason. A reason of recognition. Recognition of myself, my emotions, my behaviors and my response to those behaviors.
After watching and opening discussing with my partner about this agreement we both mutually signed into (another way of me saying turning on a drama that fed both of our pain bodies simultaneously), we decided to watch movies and docs that are educational and empowering, HAHA!
Stress and adversity open the door to change and growth.
This experience has allowed me to look at where I have a tendency to suppress my emotions, and rather than "stuff my feelings" with sex, food, or movies, I can choose to REFLECT and TRUST my process.
You can choose to recognize your relationships, and stress responses' influence on your energetic body and observe the experience with patience. It's not about getting rid of it, but rather integrating and becoming the observer.
"And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about."―Haruki Murakami
Be gentle on yourself. Sometimes my mind has a tendency to skip ahead a few steps but then I have gratitude for the step that I am standing on right now, this is the most important step of all because I am here right now! How liberating, right!?
Feed the animal in you which brings you joy and pleasure! Anything less is a dis-service to yourself. Take intentional action on things which are serving your greatness... you're a star!!!
